Sobeys meeting

When I got off work at the hospital at 3 today I went to cas to see if the papers were ready for me. The lady at the window said there was nothing there for me and another women went to tell amy i was there.Amy came down and asked me to come in a room.She asked my if i spoke to anyone the other day?I told her i didnt, she then asked me if i was seeing the boys and i told her i wasent there to talk. I told he was there to get the papers i requested.She told me she didnt know what i ment.(Grrrrrrrr)She said that she didnt get any papers from me.I explained i droped them off last tuesday.She told me there were a pile on her desk and she must not have gotton to them yet. I told her i wasent upset with her personally but It is my right to have a copy of all information cas has pertaining to my kids.I told her all it takes is to look in my file, find sept 2009, load the copier and hit copy! She told me she would have to speek to her superviser and it would take time. I told her it shouldnt because the judge put in the order so theres no question,I am intitled.She questioned why my lawyer wasent getting them.I told her "It is my right and I want them" she asked Whats ur number we can reach you at? I told her "the same number u have had on file for the past 3 years! "there are procedured I need to follow" I told her "well its because of this agencies procedures that kids fall through the cracks" I turned and left.

I stopped for gas when i left then went to sobeys on the west side. As I got out i seen mathews car and seen Dustan in the front seat.I went to the bank and tried to hold in my emotions.I could feel the tears welling up. I left the bank and went to the car.Him and kory both locked their doors. I asked "were u in school? ( it was only 3:05 and thats exactly when school gets out. Neithor one answered.Both were avoiding eye contact and were actually smirking and giggling. I went to walk away and seen that mathews window was open so i went up and asked again why they wernt in school?Kory was scartisticly laughing.I told him " i really dont see whats funny" He pointed to the radio ( they were listing to howard stern and matews searious radio...nice)
Dustan looked at me and said "i cant wait till court your going to get a rude awaking,just wait and see!" I could hear mathew comming right out of his mouth.I said "really,why?" He told me "youll see what the syckristic tells u!" I had to change the subject back.
I asked Dustan "i thought u told nanny kean u were geting the bus to school? He wouldnt answer. I looked at them both and said.This is rong guys,I just want to be ur mom,i miss.Dustan was rolling his eyes and i said I just want to be there like i always was.Dustan said "you wernt here for the lsat 3 years and we are fine with out you" I told him I have wanted to i have tried but you wont give me a chance unless you father says its ok. Dustan told me "u just wanted dad for his money cause now you have nanny kean and joel paying your way" I asked him "who am i speaking to??" I looked at Kory and he was gigling under his breath.I looked at them and said "I look after me! and i did since the day I left" Dustan told me "nanny said she paid ur rent" I told him "the only time she gave me money was when she was living with me,we shared the bills" I was feeling like I was argueing with mathew..2 of him.
I told the 2 of them I want nothing more than to have the chance to finish being ur mom. I raised u both because I wanted to..kory interupted me saying"u never raised us!"
Just then Mathew came out and seen me,he had a calm,sneeky,milishious look on his face.I asked if they were in school? he ignored me, smirking all the time.I asked again,still no answer.Then he told me calmly "were done with you" I told him he was mean,low,selfish and a few more choice words.He said "go be with ur looser were done with you" I told him ANY man is better than you. Ur a lowlife.
I walked into sobeys lost in my thoughts and needed to get myself together.I could feel the tears comming again.I made it out and sat in the car and cried. I came home and laied on the couch and cried more.Mom called at 4:48.I told he what happened.I went and washed up and went to the mill.