Camp Dustan :)

So today was the day Dustan left for Big Cove Camp!! Mathew actually took him after all. Mom called Dust last night and he finally asked Mathew and he said he would take him . Glad because Mom was not feeling well & Im sure there was paper work to be filled out when they got there.
I hope Dust has a great week & the weather stays nice for him! Today was beautiful out, hope it continues :)
I made some treats to take out to Kory tomorrow. I made double Choc chip cookies , Choch chip cookies & a Butter Scotch pie. Im sure he will love not having to share with Dust!! lol!

Might try to make him a meal later in the week too. I will see how work goes.

Jade :) :)

Today after work I decided to go up to the mall to look for something for kory for his Birthday. While I was there I seen Jade. My heart was pounding in my chest & the tears appeared faster than I could control them. I decided to go up to her and ask her if she received the card & money I put in her mail box for grading. As I approached her she had a Hugh smile on her face. This mad me want to cry even more because I was sooooo happy. She immediately said "Hi" so I asked her if she got it and she said "no". I told her that I put it in her mail box 2 weeks ago. She questioned why her Mom didn't give it to her. I told her " It had $50.00 in it....that was for YOU not HER!!" She said "I will confront her about it" I said " Wont she be mad if your talking to me...I don't want you to get in trouble" She said " I really don't care anymore!"

I was so emotional I had to go so that she didnt see me ball my face off in front of her. As I walked away I mouthed " I Love You"....she in return had a Big smile on her face!

MADE MY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..And The Judge Rules....

Today I had a Court date to try and defend the judgment against me from Mathew. I had met on 2 occasions with Hector MacIssiac. Unfortunately after he spent the afternoon of Tues May 23rd, reviewing my file. He concluded I would have no other alternative then to agree to pay support.
When I was b4 the judge. I learned that My Lawyers Fax, hadn't been received by the courts.
Initially I was Scared, mad, and truthfully numb.
As the Judge asked me what I had discussed
with my council...I truly felt abandoned yet again! But allowed me heart to speak.
When asked about Child Support, I asked the Judge to DEFINE 'Support' as well as 'Parent & Care Giver'..
I told the courts I have been accountable and willing to support MY Boys...but, I WOULD NOT Support Mathew (their Father) under ANY CIRCUMSTANCES!!
I didnt hold My emotions back, even tho at the time I thought I should. My mind was trying to keep me cool. But my sole was pushing me on.
I FOUGHT to ONLY pay & care for them! (Dust & Kory)
I requested that any $ over what I spend on what they need, goes into a bank account. For ONLY them!! ...And as Mathew agreed... The Judge made his ruling.
I do feel a sense of victory! I have said for almost 4 years now that I will NEVER give Mathew money! Today I have written that MY Intentions are for Dust & kory!!I wish I could have fought for Jade too, but laws and rights blur these lines.
As to this date, as as long as I am breathing , I will, ALWAYS feel he same as I feel with my Boys... Not only for me..but in every conversation, every smile or frown, all the times I have the opportunity to cheer them on or sit quietly along the sidelines reminding the I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
To My Madame Butterfly.....its no mistake that you hold this name in-side of me. The years we spent together have never left MY Heart!!