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Mathew told dust he would take the car around for him.Mom,Dust and I waited .I tried to talk to dustan but he was keeping up the tough guy sho. I told Him " I will not see joel anymore if u will give me a chance" He told me "how would i know?" I told him we would have to figureit out but I also wasent going to go back to his dad.I told him I would do it for him and Kory,only him and kory.Just then mathew pulled up out front.
Dustan went out to get into the car and mathew started telling me he was going to CAS then the cops.I told him To go ahead. I alos told him "make sure he gets to school!!" Dustan gave me the finger and mathew told me to "go to hell".
Mom and I said good bye and i thanked her for getting him there.
I decided to go and see if he went to CAS and he did.Dustan was in the car and he was inside. I went in too and stood against the wall,out of his view. Harvie battes seen us and waived.I kept a stern face.Bonnie mullens was there too and gave me a smile,She didnt recieve one in return.Kirston schoust was there too. I began to think 'what am i doing here'.
In the room right behind me was a little boy who was crying and saying "i dont want to talk,keave me alone", my heart began to sink.I herd him say " I guess were going to be up for adoption now" He couldnt have been more than ten if that. That was the last straw!
I walked over to mathew and said."before u decide to involve this pathedic organisation again,listen to what that poor little boy is going through! Dont do that to our boys again just so u can get away with what u have done!! After i told him that I left. Looked at dust as i left and mouthed "i love you"
I drove to legal aid and got in to see kathy.I told her of the days events and got copies of the court order stating I was legally intitled to any and all information theat CAS has on the boys.I took them back to cas and left them for Amy Southerland with a message telling her i wanted a copy of them all fron sept 2009 untill present and i would be back on friday to pick them up.Mathew was not there when i returned.
I went to work soon after i got home and e-mailed val rule before i went to bed because she is suposto see mathew and the boys soon.I want to meet with her again because its been since dec since we talked and there has been alot that has gone on since then.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh. I wish today would have been better.I really feel bad for Dust.Another 5 weeks with the cast.Im sooo pissed Mathew is being....mathew!! I told him I would drive dust and pick him up from school if i wasent working but he wont even let me do that.
He sooo wants to make sure hes in the 80's club when he leaves W.P.I hope this doesnt hinder that.I hope Mathew gets him to school.
I feel like me life for the past 18 years have been largely Hopes and wishes.Something need to happen!