Not how I wanted to see the kids. :(

I have been having a real hard time making this decision. Its not an easy one even tho its the only one i can make. Poor George isent getting any better with his absess.hes been on 3 different antibotics over the last 3 weeks now and none seem to be helping him.I have spoke to the vet and to have his tooth removed will cost between 400 to 1200 dollars. It breaks my heart to think it comes down to money but it does.I have already spent over 300 on his meds and soft food (which is what caused the prob to begin with I believe). I cant see him suffer for much longer.He loosing weight and is having a hard time eating.
On sat afternoon I decided to take him over to the trailor so that the Boys could see him. When I got there mathews car wasent there,but the kids were home.I nocked at the door then opened it.Kory was there in the kitchen and rolled his eyes and walked into the living room. I followed him and told him why I was there.I told him that George wasent geting any better and I had him with me because I thought they would want to see him because they might not have a chance to again.He just looked at me with out saying a word.
I asked if Dustan was in the bed room and he said he was. I went in and Dust said " oh my god" (with scarcasim) I told him I wasent there for me I was there so they could see George. I told Dust what I had told Kory and said "Ill wait in the car for a bit if u want to see him" Kory said immeadiatly "take him in and leave him here for a bit and you go" I said right away "ok" kory looked up at me as if surprised i agreed.I went out and took George in.I reminded Kory that he might be a little scared till he remembered where he was so I told him to talk to him so he could hear his voice. I went and told Dust I would be back in an hour to pick him back up and he said "ok".
I came back home and waited till 4 to go get him.At 4 I headed back to the trailor praying Mathew would still be away and he was.When i got there kory was still on the couch but George was sitting on the chair.I asked kory if he spent time with him? He said he tried but he wouldnt stay on the couch.I took George over and sat there with Kory and we patted him together.I told him that when he left my house George stayed under the chair in the living room for almost 3 months.I told him George loved him, he said he did too. I took him in to see Dust. I asked him if he seen him.He told me " when u wernt here i did" I took George up and sat on the bed with Dust.Dustan looked at me and said " why dont u just take him to the vet and fix him!" I told him i have been trying but hes not getting better. He questioned me and said " they must be able to do something?" I told him " I know it sounds mean Dust, but I just dont have the amount of money it costs" he asked how much and i told him. I told him that I was having a hard time thinking about having to put him to sleep,but i told him " its not right to let him be in pain or to let him be hungry" George was sitting right beside him and he was patting him.I apoligized to him that this was happening but I told him I understood how he felt because I was sad too.
Kory asked dustan for him camera but dust said it was in the car.I told Kory that i sent him pis of him and George on hotmail.He said "we dont have the internet" I said it was ok ,i still have the pics any time he wanted them.(I also noticed that the T.V was off too.It was off even when i was there dropping george off. I think that the phone was cut off now because mathew has the bundle with phone ,internet,and cable,it makes sence now that I know its not just the phone thats not in service).
I picked up george and let the kids give him one last pat then told them I loved them and that George did too. Then I left for home.
The worst part of the whole visit was that I couldnt hug them.I know my boys and if all this nasty, hatefull,mean, brainwashing, hadent been done to them by mathew, I would have been able to be there for them if they wanted to talk about it ,and hug them. I am happy i had the chance to take him over so they could see him without mathew being there because i know he wouldnt have let me in if he was home.
Its sad,we have ALWAYS had pets.The kids have always been animal lovers and now they have none. :(